Are you still eating leftovers?
I am!
In general i cook like, im cooking for a huge household. Knowing dang well it’s just me. But i also know i love food. I am always going to go back for another plate a fews more times. Very big back of me, I’m not thicke for no reason, and proud!
I grow up different from most households I knew. Most house holds I knew had atleast 4+ family member households. When it came for those to cooking big meals it was a regular everyday thing. The way i grew up it has taught me alot even though most holidays it was just me and my parents; sometime family/friends functions but for the most part just us. When I was younger it did kind of bother me not being part of large gatherings, sometimes because it was like we have family why are with them like those on the television with the huge family gathers all the time.
But it helped me develop an understand of life and what comes along with life, that some families just want close family times because you also still got to cherish these moments when we are able to have them too. Especially, with work life and trying to balance your personal life. And of course it could be because family drama, the glue of the family that keep the connections has passed to their new level of living their life from this earthly life or some just simply focus on their immediate.
No matter what we may see on television and or on social media post. It does an can affect each and everyone perspective sometimes. Though that may not always be the person intentions, yet in a way it is because business and marketing to a certain audience. Sometimes certain agenda can or will be pushed as we have seen living in this world. We still have to realize that everyone’s household and everyone’s life isn’t the same. We all have similar qualities of some parts an some lives do kind of reflect each other, it’s Gods’ setup.
A View of My Prespective
I am consider as the only child, yet I am not. So, none of this actually bothers me anymore because it was always only just me. I learned and was taught how to enjoy my own company. Either because other kids were not around or sometimes other kids were mean and I wanted to be their friend or share stuff but that isn’t what they wanted.
From the outside looking in from other perspective, it would sometimes look like i was weird kid to other people and sometimes others would tell my parents that they were doing a good job an that it is a good thing that i knew how to enjoy my own company and yet still knew how to play well with others. They did not know i still had times where i begged my parents for friends or family to come over because dang im enjoying myself but it would still be fun enjoying it with others. Though i also found out the hard way sometime, i was ready to go home and play by myself or ready for they ass to leave because they was getting on my nevres or being rude. A one things about me I didn’t play that or like playing that though of course I could be bean and selfish sometimes too. With all that being said the way i had to grew up matured me different from a lot of others I know.
And if you know a few parts of me. (I say a few parts because you might still only know the old version of me and thats okay.) You know I legit know how to have a party by myself (enjoy my time), especially those that would random stop by the house and i had the music blasted dancing in the living or those that would get to spend time with me. So, as i have gotten old. These parties has been without the pretend people and stuffed animals to fill in the gaps of those i felt like was missing; like I use to for my tea parties when I was younger.
These times, it is just me; hyping myself up; showing myself gratitude; appreciating my own energy; enjoying the space i have; enjoying the peace with being okay alone; laughing with myself and enjoying the moment like i always do no matter what because I will always have a dance party whether it is just me by myself or with family, friends, small or large groups!
Your Portion from God during Holiday and Celebrations
So others and your holidays or celebrations in will always different for each of us in moment of our lives. Life is consistently changing whether we like it or not. It is not in our control all the time. But we are about to control certain parts sometimes in it to assist us along this life journey that we are on to get us through whatever we are going through because going around it or over it doesn’t always help either.
We set the tones of those moments. It’s okay to be emotional, having emotions is very healthy. Healthy ways of releasing your emotions is very good and important for everyone of all ages. Whether it’s doing stuff you love that you use to do with the person, stuff you love, working out, learning something new, or just releasing in any healthy way for you. No one can tell how to heal or what healing looks like for you, unless it is harming someone or you harming yourself.
Other than that grieving is okay until it is not and it becomes unhealthy for you and or those around you. Not everything (things & people) cannot be replaced and you should not always try to replace whatever it is. It is those healthy avenues that will always assist you during the moment you have. We must cherish every moment that we get with anyone (or thing) whether it is good or bad.
Sometimes being alone for the holiday is good but also being around people is good too an much need. It can also depend on your background like most people I know have a lot of siblings so they are used to being around people more often then not and even those that are always just around their family. We as people often want to be around people because and for human connection. Being around people sometimes help you mood and perspective change to a much happier one then before. Pay attention to those you know or around, sometimes an invite can help those. But always use discernment.
We must always continue to heal our inner child and adult selves as we are here. It not only helps and effect our lives but also the next generations life. Healing is a journey and not a destination that we’re are looking for or trying to get to. So, do not rush the process. Those growing pains are tough but it is was builds you up to be you, that better you; the you, you are wanting to become or the person you already are. Some parts of you do not need changing accept yourself and everything about yourself but knew somethings do and can be better able yourself.
You have the option to change that. God always have a unique way of showing us or guiding us in many different ways to things (places, people or things) that heals us in a certain or help us heal. I’m not saying that you will have a replacement or the sadness won’t be there anymore. Because we are humans and we have feels but it won’t always hurt as bad as it used to. I hope this helped someone, happy holiday and enjoy the life you are living God has plans for you!